Relationship with you

The relationship you have with yourself is the most complicated because you can't walk away from you. You have to forgive every mistake. You have to deal with every flaw and insecurity. You have to find a way to love you even when you're disgusted with you.

Sometimes we try to walk away from ourselves only to become more disconnected from ourselves to then not know how to find ourselves again.

We all make mistakes. We trust the wrong people, we get into toxic relationships, we let people down, but you can change all of that. You can make amends and reset. You are not your last mistake, much more than that.

You are not your past…

You are not your mistakes…

You are not your failures…

You are not who you were yesterday…

You are not even who you were this morning…

You are who you decide to become!

Who you COMMIT to become.

You could be one decision away from a completely new life…

nudity of soul

Every man interested to see the nudity of a woman. Their beauty desires the appreciation. Man made things are so useful and beautiful .... Then why don't a God's precious thing woman is so adorable. 

When woman open her dress, undressed and established her upper skin, the moment is so adorable and affordable.... 

Then howmuch it's appealing... if she opens her Heart 💖.  When you went into deep of her heart she opens her soul. With deep connect of her soul, your soul merges with hers.  it's more enchanting.

Every woman has a girl in her. That girl needs caring, attention and pampering. When you fulfill this... She slowly opens her Heart.... If you can share the heart deeply in long time, the soul may open and invites your soul.... Feel the romance in the nudity of the soul.... How adorable the romance of two souls.

Many of the couples go upto mating of the Hearts. But go further and feel the Contentment.

Emilie Bose

The leader whose name makes Indians chest broad, who gave the prestigious Slogan for India Jai Hind, the one and only Tiger of Indian Nation The great Subhash Chandra Bose. 

His personal life is also so divine like his principles. We knew very few moments about the greatness of this great freedom fighter because of the politics of our national leaders at that time of independent India. They created like he had contacts with foreign Fascist groups. They showed to public that his participation was very minute. So very few people known about his wife Emilie.

In 1935 Bose escaped from the British prison who was arrested for initiating Armed struggle for the freedom of the Indian Nation and reached Europe and sheltered by a Indian Doctor named Mathur who settled in Vienna. The Doctor recruited Emilie as a Steno to the Bose to assist for his writings like The Indian struggle.

That moments leaded to Love of the  ve people and got married in November, 1937 in Hindu tradition and became Emilie Bose. They announced their marriage in 1942. They got a child Anita Boss in November 1942.

In 1943 Feb, Subhash Chandra Bose started to India in a Germuüan's Submarine by leaving her and his 3 months Baby. That's the last tto momenwt which tEymilie Tutour Bose. The Typemoment of Bose leaving her by saying good ybyeytyhet in her Heart. She never thought of ttu him. She knew howmuch he yyyouloves India. TTShe knew that he loves Ytyoumore yyhis mother land than her.

In 1945 she heard the news that a flight which gotaving the passenger Bose was crashed. But she didn't believe that news till her last breath.ttttt

She became alone in 1t945 and lived with her 3 years baby and old mother. There were no obstacles to her to got marry in her 34yrs of age, that too in her ttWestern culture.

But she said in an interview, she never got the thought of remarriage. I didn't go through any character like Bose, he was the rarest of rare. That love life of 6 years, married life of 4 years was enough for my entire life. No other man grabbed my heart.

She was very proud to continue as a wife of Subhash Chandra Bose even no where abouts of Boss

She celebrated on the independence day of India. She assumed the happy face of Bose in independent India. 

She wished to come to India. But sources revealed that her visa was rejected. 

She dreamt of the happy moments while she stepped into India with hand held with Boss, but she didn't wish to come to this holy Country without him. 

She worked as a telephone operator for the maintainene of the family. Her daughter Anitha got married and had 2 sons and 1 daughter.

One of her grand sons said about Emilie that her granny didn't talk much, but eventually talked about patriotism, about Bose courage. She advised everytime be ready to sacrifice your lives for motherland, take Bose as an ideal. She passed away at the age of 86yrs.

This noble lady passed half century in the thoughts of her six years life and her husband. She never believed the death of Bose in her entire life.

This is very small tribute to Subhash Chandra Bose on his Birthday... Remembering his wife and her Devine love.

Timely Relation

Every person wants an accompany from the moment of Birth. Upto 20 years we can't survive without Mother. After that slowly our body and mind search for an opposite partner and give more importance to them only. After that whenever we came across to motherhood or fatherhood, we give importance to kids more over. 

We want different relations in different stages. One who misses the attachment in that particular stage can't replace by anyone. Like this only marriage also want to be in the right time with right person ( one who liked by you, not your family). 

Generally most of the Psycho killers are abused or non attached kids. The injury for a child's Heart is more hurted than an Adult. The non attachment stage in childhood pains one's Heart for life long.

The very early marriage of a girl who aspires for an achievement, getting very gaped partner leads to Depressive and leads to Psycho illnesses stage.

Timely Relationship and Timely companionship is more important in a life. Lack of mothers Love in childhood, lack of companion in the young age are more deceiving factors for the mental wellness, particularly for a woman.

Lack of parents touch in childhood, Abscence of good emotional and physical touch leads to touch deprivation or skin hunger and known as touch starved occurs only when a person experiences little to no touch from other living things.

Live life to the fullest

Laughed at the Misha's joke in the sedation of the vodka in that cool breeze of a Beach Resort.... Enjoying the highness of an invitation for a blind date from Misha. Eyes are reflecting the brightness due to the confidence for settling down well in this western country. 

I'm dancing while Misha offered, feeling like enjoying, but some where in the deep, I am getting jerks Am I really enjoying, is this my real happiness??

 My heart slowly painting my loves photo in my brain who were left by me in India. I felt that I couldn't sit there roaming here and there. Whatever Misha understood my situation, she tried to change my mood by flirting. 

She wanted me deeply at that time. But I couldn't live in that moment. Misha is so provoking with her white transperent frock, she want me to move forword. She sat under a roof focusing light with that transperent frock to provoke me. 

 the sparkle in her eyes, her ability to shine bright made me so admirable, but not Lovable..... Told sorry to her and walked down from there, walked to reach me by asking the waves to help. The moon is showing the possible paths. After deep pain in the Heart and the legs, I laid at a moment on that rough sand,

Immediately I remembered her ankles, only ankles...

While she was walking, I used to look at her ankles to know how much is she raising from ground....... Remembering  trinkets n black around one of her legs.......I could get to know abt her taste.......Her wrists usually shivers while in serious situations... so sensitive... She speaks with rise up, chin up manner with lot of confidence.......I would sense her aura around the hand.... Her hair, Which will dance to the air instead of floating....... WoW

Oneday I kept debating so hardly to get her attention. Later when I apologized, she laughed and appreciated my attitudes.

She nails anything with her best partner, her waist And she doesn't care of anything while she is working. 

She had no model or statue type body.... But there is a wonder with her. I want that closeness with her.

Enrouting my walk towords her by booking a flight ticket to reach her. 

Brain and Heart Emotional Connect

Missing some years in your life or missing some time span is not a wonder in your life. It's a time which you are not like you or facing situations which you couldn't handle.

You used to remember every sweet moment of the childhood... Arrival of your grand father with eatables, bathing in the flowing canal, draping mother's sarees secretly, first adolsent attraction, movies with your dad, everything which touches your heart in the growing process. You remember all the number of the particular year which you enjoyed alot. We usually remember the political changes around and global. We can easily tell the approximate year in our old age also.

But some life span and some of the years couldn't remembered by us. One, who can remember the year which he seen his favourite movie and laughing with his mother couldn't remember the major changes in his life means he is not interested in the life which he is leading now. He is feeling the routine in the life hikes. He is walking in the life which his Heart doesn't like. May be he doesn't give a chance to Heart to tell or he didn't hear to the Heart.

Brain stores the feel of Heart in a tiny situation of eating outside food with a hearted 💔 one as a great memory than a Five star Lunch. Brain stores the day of Hard work combined with Smart.

Brain has great power in remembering, but it is more powerful when the moment connects to the Heart. Brain losses its interest when the moment is not connected emotionally. Brain and Heart functions are entirely different as a Theory, but in this scenario they are deeply connected.

Observe one thing... We don't remember emotional break ups, cheated situations after long term. But we do remember walking with hand held with our Father, Childhood fightings with our siblings, watering our favourite plant.

Woman is not matured at the Love

A girl need a man in her life to become a woman for the stability and maturity he may bring to her.

Love is something that happens naturally. It's the calmest place in your life, the safest blanket you've ever worn,A peace of mind you've never had before.

Immature love says "i love you because i need you." while Mature love says "i need you because i love you."

But woman is always immature in love, but don't have immature love. 

She wants to show her love to her friends, want to cherish his lover with his friends. She wants to show their closeness to her friends. She wants to exhibit the strength of their relationship. In everything in the aspect of love, she is the most immatured. May be her conscious of she doesn't want anybody rather than him creates all this immature things. 

She wants to show her friends how she is happy in the relation, in the same way she want to show her soulmate how she is cherished the freedom with her friends.

 She wants to show her life to his love, at the same time she wants to introduce her world to her love.

She always asks suggestions even she knew she is doing right. She wants to give upperhand to him even he doesn't seek. She wants to mould how he like her. 

She wants him to keep on express his love. She wants him to identify her as a special in all the girls.

You never lose someone who lives in your heart

Emotions are so hard to handle. Break up is uploaded unknown burden upto the neck and didn't allow me to think and swallow.

May be that's my mistake to enter into a relation.... In Illusion of got admired of me and my character by the person.

But not getting rid of the sensation of that touch and smell. Always feeling them and turning towords expecting him.

In my view, there is no such limit of community levels, status levels for a relation, want same maturity levels. Think that I'm not wrong. May be I mistaken in measuring maturity levels.

If God allow me for a boon, I desire there is no such thing break up. It's an emotional Tsunami which mayhem the heart of the women, the prey.

We can't exist without Heart, how we can exist without the person who's in your heart.... But want to exist. May be He is with you only if He is in your heart.

I want a relation be a sweet memory even it's not existing now... But don't want to be degraded, fought for no reason.

Expression

Expression is a quite natural thing which differentiate human from other animals. Humans like to express their happiness, sad, anger and their pleasure, but can express only if we like the circumstances and like the persons around us.

People love to capture expressions, but not all.

There is a meaning for our feeling only if it's having an expression. Expression is perfectly elevated only when we have no inhibitions, perfect bonding with the other person.

Loss of expression of anger leads to vicious situations, loss of expression of happiness has no meaning, loss of expression of pleasure is not 100% satisfied pleasure. 

Identification of human expression is quite natural to other person, but not for all the persons. But quite easy for the persons, whose wave lengths matched. 

We can share our feelings easily and fall in love with the person easily with the one who identifies our expression of feelings.

Our feelings are more visulized when they are identified. Happiness increased, anger decreased, pleasure will be meaningful.

Identification of pain expression makes people close, identification of happiness expression will improve their act for our happiness.

If you are not expressing your pleasure, that's not pleasure, and leave the person which whom you couldn't express your pleasure.

Life should have the Freedom of no need to hide our feelings and pleasure

Huge Break

Everybody's life has good memories and bad experiences. Everyone steps up and down and knows how to deal with them.

The person who deals with downs had more  worthy experiences. Trending down is the most common feature of the misfortunate person. 

No even one break or one huge turn in life except that unfortune. No new step up or even no same path of my birth. What's the most unfortune is I'm very much fortunate for anyone who met me in their life path. 

Expecting every simple person or thing that's a big turn, but everytime disappointed.

Accepting everything for passing time even it's not even her cup of tea. Eventually missing the identity,  turning the ideology, walking with no interest in life without touching the feet to the floor.

Simply becoming the naughty big eyes even more big by seeing the great turns of the others in a very simple random way through a single step even they are worth very small, but now they (the eyes) couldn't stop the rain of them, appearing an ocean when we observe the dark lines below the eye liner. The eyes still remembering it's beautiful showers under a shower years back.

Sounds that depression when the door is locked, living with no one for her vibrated the downturn with the immaturity of Longiness.

Still have a little hope for that dusky eyes... But the hope is now went back behind the showers and slowly laying down on the folding hand with still thinking which has no use.. Want a consoling palms, but what a fortune, missed that intimacy hand also for the big desire of her consoling hands.....

Not a misfortune.... Not a exact word.... Searching for the word

photo

Photo tells a intuitive story to you. Hey it's true.... Come.... We have a look...

Some pics are so special just like the individuals. Some pics have life in them. Some are adorable.

 Pics resemble closeness, happiness, Love and sometimes lust tooo. Can expect the situation, can expect the opinion for the people towords them.

Some pics are live memories for the past endearing situations. Photos resemble confidence and conviction.

Always the magical, brilliant,expressive eyes tell a intelligent story to you. Eyes are the most resembling parts of human sense. They emit lighting when they sense happiness. They became dull when sense ignoring or sense negative. They play the same role in aspect of the photos also.

Can expect Who's their partner, who's their soulmate, who's their well wisher by observing the pics. The guy who is touched by girl's bosom must be her soulmate.

Some pose casually, some intentionally, some interestingly, some forcefully, some happily..... Not only moment, feeling also be captured which can be seen by expressive hearts only.

Can mark their confidencial and convinental levels of the folk or individual. Can mark their beauty obviously,  ofcourse it differ for every individual, intelligence elegantly.

happiness in and out

Feeling emotionally happy means feeling internally happy with a person. We feel free to be ourselves and show our authentic self, including our hurts, fears, and longings.

If you are really loved some one, you must feel internally relaxed with them. You shouldn't experience a longing to connect, but something feel interrupting the closeness you wanted. Love someone means experiencing the trust and safety that allows the relationship deepens. It seems like the intimacy, but sadly difficult to find.

Feeling emotionally safe is essential foundation for any intimate relationship, creates necessary climate for closeness. Emotional safe means feeling internally relaxed with the person.

As we feel consistently held with respect and caring, we relax with the person, as your partner or friend has the intention, interest and capacity to see us, hear us and understand us, even if they fall short sometimes... We relax more with them which strengthens the foundation of our intimacy.

We might have been hurted in the past relationships, may have vowed never to trust anybody again... These isolation May lead a dry and empty existence.

Life is richer when we find a partner or friends with whom we can feel free ourselves and be connected.

People feel safe to be catch up with each other recording tender feelings and desires without fearing criticism or rejection. Open communication is the life for an intimate relationship.

Deceiving, breaking agreements....I don't want discuss about these.

Feeling intimacy discovers ourselves.... We are more visible than before. We are more available for our own Heart 💓.

Waiting

Waiting is really frustrating me... Life is becoming a waiting... Waiting for the evenings weekends to meet you.... But I'm a small break for you as you are my priority.

Waiting for your message waiting for call waiting for your hug, frustrated with this waiting.

Waiting for you in my much awaited free time, doubting my priorities, testing my patience my self, arguments of arranging time really taking my energy.

I feel like I'm waiting for something that is not going to happen.

Waiting for studying, waiting for career, waiting for love, really worson me as my contemporaries are getting without waiting and trying.

Words so tired when I want to communicate really embracing me. 

Waiting is also sweet and when it happens both sides and not taken for granted.

I never imagined myself saying that about anyone. I had hoped I would. I wanted to be in love, but I really didn’t think there was any way I’d be so in love with someone who reciprocated all the same feelings.

I feel like I spent years just longing for someone to love me. It brought me to tears so often. I thought I was being patient and waiting on the right guy, but I wasn’t being patient or waiting at all.

I was complaining when I didn’t have someone, and when I did, it wasn’t healthy or the right timing.

Trying to find our “soulmate” is the object of the game, I really long for at the end of every day. Someone to cuddle with, someone to eat takeout with, and someone to just be with.

We get to a point where we will take what we can get. 

keep waiting When you think you can’t, just wait one more day. And then the next. And the next. Something great will happen. You’ll stop waiting and you’ll just start being.

I wish I would have taken this advice. I really wish I would have.

It finally hit me that I desperately needed to be alone to learn how to deal with myself before anyone else in the world would ever want to deal with me.

That doesn’t mean it’s ever easy to deal with me, and for a long time I thought that made me unlovable. I felt so hard to love.

And then someone fell in love with me when I wasn’t even looking. I was just being me. He was stealing glimpses while I was effortlessly being myself. I didn’t have to try. I was no longer hard to love at all.

I am certainly hard for him to deal with, but I know without a shadow of a doubt, loving me is his favorite thing to do and the easiest part of his day.

He came out of nowhere and I wasn’t looking for him at all. I had been single for almost and was so happy being alone. But God knew my heart was getting a little restless and was ready for someone to finally love me the way everyone deserves to be loved.

And when a man finally pursued me with the right intentions, things fell together.

At first, I absolutely did not want a boyfriend and thought he was very nice but wanted no part of being in a romantic relationship with him. I thought he was fun and we’d go on a few dates and that would be it. That wasn’t it at all. And the universe was laughing hysterically at my thought process.

He wasn’t who I thought I had been looking for. So I prayed for some guidance and basically was like, “Hey God if you want me to date this boy, you better show me why because I really thought I was supposed to be alone for a few more minutes or years.”

I have always been pretty close to the world about my love life. I’ve written about it, I haven't talked about it, and Ihaven't joked about it for years. My dating life has really reflected a romantic comedy and I think the universe was silently cheering for me to finally catch a good one.

I have had so many girls genuinely tell me how happy they are for me and tell me how much they wanted what I have with my boyfriend. Every time I talk about him or tell the story of how we met, girls are brought to tears.

That’s when I want to grab them and say, “Wait.”

A good man, the right man, is more than worth the wait. Girls, LISTEN – PLEASE do not settle for someone just because you are bored or lonely. That guy can’t ever make you the happiest you were made to be, and you can’t love him the right way either. If you don’t wait for the person made for you, you’ll end up with SOMEONE ELSE’S PERSON. That is no fun.

When you’re with YOUR person, you know he’s your person. You can see it in his eyes and feel it in every single embrace. It’s a beautiful, moving, soul-shaking feeling. It’s what we dream about to settle for the so-so feeling or wait it out and get the butterflies, the really big butterflies, every single day?

I get them every day. And it’s because I finally waited. I stopped searching and I let the magic happen.

Real love isn’t fancy dates and expensive gifts – it’s a feeling you’ll never be able to explain to a single person. And you’ll know when it’s real.

It is the greatest feeling in the entire world because it comes straight from the God who is love. It’s his number one greatest gift to us.

I love love. And I love seeing people in love. I want everyone to get to be in love with someone! I really do. So I am begging and pleading and crying out for you to wait patiently and then just hide and watch what happens. It might not happen next week or even next year, but it will most certainly happen at the perfect time.

Before you know it, when you are content, some guy you never would’ve expected to love or to love you will finally get the courage, after months of being nervous, to ask you to go fishing. And then, well… here we are.

Live where ever detail is a big surprise

Misha,

I realised that the way to love someone is to lightly run your finger over that person’s soul until you find a crack, and then gently pour your love into that crack. The crack here is not your past or any but a way that you made for me but hid it in fear of falling for me but i found it and here we are so much in love".

"When the words don’t spill from my lips, my eyes whisper to you. You pull the secrets out of me with just a smile. My heartbeat tells you all the stories I was hesitant to share. You speak a language only my heart knows and damn haven’t you become fluent".

"You have no idea how much i want to feel your legs intertwined with mine as we lay asleep, knowing you’re right there and not going anywhere. The sun sets so early nowadays, but, my God, your eyes have never been brighter. I find your lips, so kissable and your kiss, unmissable. your fingertips, so touchable and your eyes irresistible. I melt and get weak when I see you nude. I get a jolt of energy like no other".

"You are perfectly imperfect, you are just as flawed as any but you have a way of making it look cute. You have this attitude that allures me into you every time we argue or fight or anything that you do which impacts us. I am in love with the imperfect you and there is nothing so beautiful about having a woman who can be herself in the midst of everything. Just as human and just as imperfect as I am".

"Love is having to understand her, having said that it doesn't mean that you have solved the jinx that she is. She should remain to be the most important person whom you are trying to understand and will continue to which might sometimes have inconclusive references from countless attempts but you should never give up in loving her and understanding her. You will have to lf needed put in months and years in understanding who she is what she wants from you. All of which doesn’t mean she is  a complex being, it means you are not taking her for granted and you shall always strive to love her with the best of your abilities".

"If my words can make a hug turn to a kiss, I shall run through every word I have learnt and every way of putting them together to just capture your attention and imagination. I shall make it my ambition to make you stay this way for there is no warmer feeling than experiencing emotions this way".

Love and control

Love is one of the best feelings in the world. No matter what you do with eachother. Everything is so fun and you are so happy. It could be laying in sofa, watching videos to sit with friends at a coffee shop. That feeling is like no other and you never want it to end or go away.

Until you realize they wanna control you, until they start to get aggressive if anyone looks at you in any way, until they make you show them all your texts and social media because they're afraid you are cheating, until they show up uninvited because they didn't want you to be with out them, and until they think you can't dress up and look good unless they're going out with you.

Why Can something that makes you feel so good, makes you feel so trapped?

Love The person who tells you to be safe when you go out, not the one who gets mad 😡 .
Remember it's a partnership, not a ownership.
It seems like they love you, they're obsessed with you. But then you realize that obsession is toxic. It's based on insecurities and ego.

Don't Let anyone control you, you're not a puppet. Love does not mean control. Love is genuinely giving yourself to someone else.

If They make you feel guilty when you spend time with your friends, that's control.
The behavior of ownership and control can take so many different forms. It's important to observe.

The only way to be sure it's these 2 signs :

1. It's pulling you away from anyone and everything that you're close to.
2. It's making it seem like they're the only person in your life.

Remember, love the person who tells you to be safe when you go out. Not the one who gets mad 😡 .

Partnership is not a ownership